When I bleed

When my muscles crush,

I wish I could get a massage.

I imagine a friend

Who will pat my body
with his magic fingers
around my waist
and relieve the pain
from the muscles around.

This is the only time
I feel  less stronger
than the male counterparts
Can feel their muscle power
crushing me around
And fells un powered
I envoy the strong muscles
and the carefreeness.

And when body ached,
My crushing muscles
longed the finger touch of
My partner on my stomach
But it was only a dream.
For my periods
has remained till now
A private affair.

Once Upon a Time there Lived a Girl

Once Upon a Time there Lived a Girl
who dared to eat the forbidden fruit

For her that fruit was her birth right
to question and think out loud
She asked why and why not
But was told to shut her mouth

Will any girls questions elders?
Will any girls hurt men even if
They are harassing you?
Will any girl climb the trees
and play the boy's games?
Come inside here are the dolls
and books for you.
Will any girl participate in sports
Mind it will hurt your soft body
Protect your body, its your duty.

But would she have seen this world,
if she hadn't ate that fruit?
She would have been comfortable
with her partner and the nature
But what is the life - without
joy, sad, fear, excitement and fun
And what else is above the feel
of exercising your own freedom?

The Lone Traveller

I asked him how was the day
His tired voice told it was hectic
He reclined on sofa and his
eyes was getting closed in a nap
I thought, I can share my plans
along with the tea
About an exciting weekend in planning
But with tea in one hand and
mobile phone in other, he
was busy in calls
I thought we can watch a movie
together in quite night
But he came late night
home after the work
Finally when I told
that I want to travel
He told in tired voice,
I am not coming you go
I looked at him in despair
And at the two shoes I
kept ready and the two
back packs waiting eagerly
And back again to his eyes
It has gone to sleep
What can I do now?
Travel alone - it is my destiny
Nobody will be there to
travel your life dear,
you have to walk alone
the difficult paths
Quietly I took the shoes
and wore them;
secured the backpack
Came back to kiss on
his forehead and whispered a bye
Here starts the journey of
a lonely traveller
through the lesser known paths

Relentless Love

Whether you love me or not

I love you so much

Like a river flowing relentlessly to the ocean

You cannot stop me any more

It tried to hold itself at its origin

In the comfort of the mountains hugging it 

Came out of the shackles holding it back

Of home or society or the history 

Cannot stop even after years it 

Have joined the sea

Will wait for next life or after or after

To be just with her love

I may hit you, thrash you, 

If you are in my way

But it is just a matter of time 

You will see me come out strong

Because I love you so much 

Whether you want it or not. 

Fear

I didn't had fear

And I wanted to have

I travelled far and high

In search of fear

But couldn't find one.

I wandered alone in

the sprawling city streets

I walked in dark on

the unlit city streets

But couldn't find one.

I hiked to hills

looked up and down

But I could see only

sky up, land down

There was no fear.

I rappelled, climbed

trusting only the rope

holding me in air

I bungee jumped

But didn't see fear.

I dared to fight,

dared to question

suffered the penalty

Hoped, fear will help

But it was not to.

I loved without fear

I hated, but not afraid

But I was alone in

my journey all the way

Not even fear for company.

.........................

Finally I got fear!

when I got loved ones

Fear of loosing them

Fear of not being for them

Gripped me tightly!

Now when I try to let

me off the harness

Heart thumps and

hands won't leave

And I was afraid!

I am happy now

Being able to find

The FEAR, because

I know, living without

one is Dangerous!

To my Love

I owe you my life - my new life
I shall call it.
I was in the cage - you gave wings
I can fly now.
I had dreams - you gave it colours
So they are beautiful.
I wanted to smile - you gave the reason
So it is meaningful.
I was alone - you found me
So we are together.
I wanted a soulmate - for the life
You lend yours.


You taught me how to think
I became rational.
I learnt not to worry about the fate
There is the joy.
When I wanted many things together
You showed the sacrifice
Sometimes my thoughts were blind
You showed the logics.
I vied the big ones - you showed the small
That matters most.
I try not to cry - because those tears
Disturb you most.


You are the greatest asset
In my life
I wonder even now how
It happened
Time can't go very slow
It has been 5 years!

The Pangs of Love

The love is pain
When it is lost.

It rolls down your eyes
as salty water rivulets.

It enters your nostrils
as pricking breath,
which pounds your throat.
And when you swallows,
sores your airways and
thumps your lungs.

You feels the ache 
in your heart 
so heavy and painful
it makes you cry-
out loud like a kid
again and again.

The stomach mumbles
and needs dabbing.

The whole body shivers,
You cuddle to sleep
but with your 
opened eyes staring
at the roof or the 
stars in the sky.

The women

They blocked all her opportunities
and blame her as ignorant.

They left her only to God's grace
and blame her for mad faith.

They gave her no say in decision
and blame her as a fatalist.

They give her little time to think
and blame her as illogical.

Their laws wont work for her
and blame her as a cynic.

They gave her work nil value
and blame her as a minion.

They failed to give protection
and blame her as an offender.

They don't want her to be heard
and blame her as loquacious.

And when she seeks her rights
She is blamed as an outcast!

Memories

The memory tree is with its grand canopy,

Sprawled over even with a single trunk.

The boughs into branches and then into twigs

And finally into narrow stems it have grown.

Here each branch is each each experience

The foliage of memories spurts on them

As time passes they may fall off

but the imprints as branches are there forever.

They are growing in all the directions

Some are dead and some are dormant-

that spring again with a gentle touch.

Some are strong and some are weak

And some have fruits and blossoms!

I looked at my tree, standing some three feet away

I saw the buds, flower and fruits

and the spreading branches too.

A flattering voice appeared and disappeared -

I want to pluck some foliage

and remove it forever!

One moment I leaned back, gained strength

to hug the trunk with force and

shook it again hard and hard.

The pearls - the water drops that the leaves saved

from the last rain

fell all over me broken as tiny droplets

save even single leaf !

My wet face looked up the memories 

and they laughed at me;

We wont fall down how hard you try-

Thus said their smiling faces .

They are so strong now and ever not to fall 

I was exhausted and stood there

resting upon the trunk watching the leaves

that swung in the wind.

My legs didn't have the strength to hold

and I slipped down;

I sat there leaning on the tree unaware

when slipped to sleep.

All the memories together carried me to

many many wonderlands

That were unknown hitherto for me.

I wandered here and there

silently, until a sparrow chirruped at me

sitting on its branch .

The Rain Loves Me

I know - the rain loves me
She hasn't told me so
I haven't asked her so
But I know she loves me.

As the rain drop falls leaving the clouds,
and lands on my lips as tiny arrows,
Is n't it paining?
But I like that pain - rain loves me

When I walks along this never ending path,
She rushes on from the blue;
As the co passengers search for shelter,
I continue my journey in the rain.

Let she hug me,
make my each cell chill
and caress me as much as she can,
I know - the rain loves me.

Why she coming to my window
and chattering with me?
Why she always comes to me?
Why she weeps covering face with her hands
while leaving me?
I know the rain loves me.

Freedom

want to sing
but order is "make no noise"
want to hear songs
but not allowed to switch on the player
want to go out
but the door is locked
want to speak
but nobody to listen